Hello Blogspot,

I'm sorry that I haven't been on. I've just got some things going on. :3

I hope and wish my mother to get well soon. I'm too scared to lose her. I sat constantly beside her wishing that she'd be better.. Please God, don't take her away from us. Not right now.

My aunt called and i'm ready to move down south with her this december, but I told her politely that I'd rather just stay here with my mom until things get better. (:

.... ugh. I can't stop being moody. I hate it. :'(

What's on my mind:

I'm just happy that Abbey's wedding was a huge success and I'm hoping the photographers have most of the pictures developed so I can finally add them onto facebook, too! It was a very hectic day for me. I loved it. I can't to have my own wedding someday.

Also, I can't believe he wrote a 4 page essay about his feelings for me. I'm utterly in disbelief that he'd do that. But as sweet and adorable this was, I must refuse his proposal for now. I'm very sorry. :(

I'm not ready to be in a very good commitment. I'm only 17 and counting. I'm still a growing adult, and something that committed will jepordize my school and work. No, it's not an excuse. Actually a friend of mine helped me out of it, and I am so grateful that he talked me to it. I'm just not prepared to be that commited to someone. I have my own dreams to accomplish and you have yours. May be in a few years, some day.. we'll give ourselves a try and maybe by then.

...I haven't given up on love, I believe in it. no matter what kind of relationship it is, I will never stop believing. but right now, i'm just not ready.

Also, I'll be flying to Milan next, next week. or even sooner. just waiting for my manager to give the final call and I'll be on my way. Summer is very stressful. :) please, god. watch over my loved ones.

Happily Ever After..

I'm always fascinated with fairy tales and the great stories of princess being swooped off by their princes. You could say I fantasize about my own dreams. :3 I am so exited to have my cousin, Abbey to finally be tied to the man who she's been happily in love with since middle school. Yes! Middle School! :P it's so weiiiirrrdd bu I'm so happy for them. I know Mike's going to take good care of Abbey! :)

Things I need to do:

-Work out! (MUST)
-Book hotels for Mom and Pop
-Take care of laundry and dogs
-Ask for appointment with Chi
-Appointment with Abbey
-BUY STARBUCKS!~ <3 BUSY BUSY! :3

I am so excited! :3 I feel like I'm the one who's getting married! Teehee. I know the list is a wee bit small, but if I were to be married, I know that I'll have more things to do (even to the tiniest detail. :3) it's a Stevenson woman deal. :3 I hope my husband doesn't mind me becoming a bridezilla! D:

Decisions

I just need to get off something out. (:

1. Work- I'm currently going to be back in the States next week. Visit my Aunt and then fly back to Maryland to visit Mom and Pop. :3


2. Food- French cuisine is ah-mazing~ <3 :3


3. Travel- I'll be going back to the States next week, and I'm excited!

Places I'm going to visit soon:

• Milan


• Hungary


• Germany


• Switzerland


• Sweden


• Spain


• Portugal

It's going to be hectic this summer break. I'm excited! I want to make the best of it~ <3

Also, apparently... [insert name] has changed their mind. I'm very disgusted the fact that they are going to change just because of THAT. Eugh. Also, [insert their ugly names] what an ugly couple. She's very clingy and annoying. From what I hear, she's fake. That's not who he's supposed to be with. :) js.

But what can we do? Personally me? None. Just let them be happy. :3

Strangers

strangers.

when meeting someone for the first time in your life, you first start off as strangers. but do you know what it’s like to meet someone for the first time and then actually falling in love with them? once you see him/her you start to think, “wow, this one looks like the one for me.” after awhile, you guys start to talk and talk, and just get used to each other. well, let’s just say, it can be a good thing getting used to each other, but also bad. you might be asking, how is it bad? well, after being really used to each other, someone might start losing feeling in that relationship. after awhile, everything will turn into big arguments. big arguments can lead to very serious break-ups. you don’t know when or how it’s going to happen. but you know why it’s happening. after breaking-up, you start checking on them again and see that they have a new person in their life. you might see on facebook that they probably changed their relationship status from “single” into a “relationship” again… after a month or so later, you see them again and it just feels so weird. have you ever gotten that feeling where after awhile you see your “ex” and then you startfalling for them again? that’s what i mean by weird. but once you see them, you see them with someone else, but you can’t do anything about it. deep down inside, you really want to scream or cry probably, maybe even hurt the new person that he/she is in a relationship with but you don’t want to look like afool, so you just smile and pretend that everything is okay. remember the lovewe once had? everything is gone, and now… we’re just strangers again… i guess it really is time to move on.

Story of my life. :3 I'm confused as ever.

A story..

Not your typical love story.. Guy meets Girl, they fell in love, then out of it. blah blah blah <3

I told you. I took a picture. :)

It's overlooking the river. What are the chances of you coming to France and watching this.

This is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for someone. :3 I'm jealous.

laying in bed, doing nothing. :l This is the life. :3