I'm just happy that Abbey's wedding was a huge success and I'm hoping the photographers have most of the pictures developed so I can finally add them onto facebook, too! It was a very hectic day for me. I loved it. I can't to have my own wedding someday.
Also, I can't believe he wrote a 4 page essay about his feelings for me. I'm utterly in disbelief that he'd do that. But as sweet and adorable this was, I must refuse his proposal for now. I'm very sorry. :(
I'm not ready to be in a very good commitment. I'm only 17 and counting. I'm still a growing adult, and something that committed will jepordize my school and work. No, it's not an excuse. Actually a friend of mine helped me out of it, and I am so grateful that he talked me to it. I'm just not prepared to be that commited to someone. I have my own dreams to accomplish and you have yours. May be in a few years, some day.. we'll give ourselves a try and maybe by then.
...I haven't given up on love, I believe in it. no matter what kind of relationship it is, I will never stop believing. but right now, i'm just not ready.
Also, I'll be flying to Milan next, next week. or even sooner. just waiting for my manager to give the final call and I'll be on my way. Summer is very stressful. :) please, god. watch over my loved ones.
